Facing Realty

I realized this weekend that regardless of how many blogs I write, regardless of how many people I seek advice to, most of my recent losses are permanent. Papaw will never call me again, Grandpa will never make another coke-float, my friend will never call. Everyday, I come closer to grasping this reality, everyday I sink further and further into a darkness so pervasive that I have found myself wondering who I even am. It has all been too much to handle at one time yet these are the cards God has dealt me and I must trust that His game plan, His will, shall prevail. And regardless of how things turn out, I must accept these realities and move on. So I continue to pray, continue to seek His wisdom... I sincerely hope these emotions end quickly.